The dark side of benevolence

How benevolent
we long to be!
This wish --
that I could smile upon
the people in my life
and wave some sort of magic wand
to make each wish
come true;
to find them jobs,
or pay their bills --
may not be solely motivated
by compassion,
or generosity,
but may have a darker side;
a longing to rise above,
beyond,
to be perceived as kind,
or fair
or maybe
even
as God?


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